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time to end

2008-10-12T08:47:00.000-07:00

time to end this blog liao wo...=)sayonara...=D

~last gift, last regret~

2008-03-26T23:11:00.000-07:00

hi... there has been a long time i didn blog le... ytd my pal said something... that hit into my heart.. . as this qn... i started to wonder from thn... till i reached hm.. i wonder... and i think...finally.. the answer is yes... aft a long time.. its still will affect me... and thing still remains it,.. a gift which nv been gave out to... still wondering.. and the last thing it reminds me of... (the last gift)...

~fEeLings nOw~

2008-02-15T08:53:00.000-08:00

today is feb 16... just passed 12am... its time to add some issues and my own feelings to my "die" blog... ppl said that my blog is lifeless... while, its true,,, because contain i wrote, its mostly all the bad memories and feelings i have... and now, there isn't any expection... while, these period of time is our chinese new yr... i should be feeling the happiness and the joy of it... but surprising... i don... and can said, at first i have no feeling about it... but aft ytd, which i have found out that my exam result will be releasing on feb 27... this news affects my days... haiz.... when time is getting closer to the releasing of my result, i feel less confident... as i can feel that recent yr, my life is not that "shun"... so this time round, im quite worry about my result... as sometime i feel doubt on me... and suddenly there is a stress upon me... afraid alots of things... esp in my result which i will be getting on feb 27.. . because this will depends wheather i can get into my 2nd yr or not... if not, should i continue on...?? do i still have the chance??? doubt come across my mind... which sometime i dare not think about it... the onli thing i could do is to pray... and hope i can get into my 2nd yr... maybe these few yr.. i have to stride hard for alots of things... and all these i have done, have decrease my confidences and increase more doubt in me.... suddenly i feel that, all the feelings and the confidents i have... like all vanish within the air... upon the darkness.. hopefully i could see a light... which can guide my way through... and the most important thing is.... i HOPE... and really hope i could get into my yr 2... and not dissappoint my family.. esp to me... ( hope for luck).. good luck to myself...

dec timing (freeze)

2007-12-17T20:48:00.000-08:00

long time didn blog for my blogger... it seems empty and dull... but yet it is the nicest place for me to confide my feelings in it and i think the onli place i can confide to ba... As time passes so fast... one flash, and now it is already dec timing.. normally i do like dec... because it has nice weather... and also i can refresh my memory for wat i have passed these few months... but for this yr... hai.. think that there isn much thing which i can refresh for... maybe throughout these yrs i have lost alots of things.. esp this yr... my life is like " zombie"... now my life is living like undead world.. hai.. plus this few days the weather become colder and colder... and it has started to freeze my life ba.... but no matter wat... i think i just onli have to endure ba... just sometime i have to qn myself.. is it all worth it? lastly is, for my closest 1... hope that they will be happy and have a wonderful holi as desire for esp to(...)

today is sunday time 12.26 am

2007-10-28T09:25:00.000-07:00

today is sunday.... just finished my work... now is 1226 am... though my work has just finished but yet i have a bad day too.. everytime im having a bad days mostly related to work... but tonight... no.. i just have an quarrelled with my parents... as usual they will think u mei ba mei xiao... just because u said something... or ur tone of ur speech is abit harsh or etc... but actually they have misunderstood my speech which i told them.. and they think im mei da mei xiao.. maybe my speech is abit harsh.. but how can i do.. who tell me im the youngest in the family.. if not they will understand ma... they will know ma... how much they can understand this family.. how much I can understand my family.. the answer is I DON KNOW... i onli know that they don understand me... but at least i understand the whole family... i cant say that i understand entirely but at least i know... but wat about them.. wat about my parent.. do they.... ?? this qn has been wondering in my mind for this very nite again... how well they know my life.. how well they know me.. think that they onli think im immuture... lame... think that im always so rebell... so not understanding towards them... sosososo... watever... haihaihai... everytime im thinking about this qns my heart feel very pain... heart will start crying.. maybe my friends are rite.. im an emo guy ba... as time pass together with my family.. think i start losing my feeling... not onli my family... my life has also affected my feeling too... but yet my parents still think im not the understanding child for them.. hai.. who call me the youngest child... thats wat they normally said.. thats y i nv told them my feelings too... because wat they wil think is.. hey u just a kid.. a youngest child at home... a child like a age of 18.. got anything to worry about... got anything to stress about meh.. a child... WAT IS A CHILD BTW?? WAT IS LIFE BTW?? since sec sch life... i have nv have a really happy smile... really happy incident that is leak out from my heart... NEVER NEVER NEVER... and i think it wouldn have in my future... stress?? think no... think tht i have lost everything in my life.. and also faith.... for me.. wat is a real smile and happiness..?? is a thing.. that i think i would not be having at moment...

there had been a long day~

2007-10-26T08:44:00.001-07:00

hi... there has been a long time i didn update my blog liao.... humm...since few months liao wo... now is oct 26... going to update my blog again.. hehe.. btw i nv leak out my feeling be4.. and i also nv share my feeling towards a person too.. but then if got problem.. who to find who to console for?? for my fan nao is always the same... trouble within a qn... whisn is wat is life... since everything has changed alot after sec sch.. my life totally changed... hai.... don no choice... sometime have to achieve something there has no choice but to xi shen... but is it worth it?? this qn i have been thinking the whole time... sometime life is quite tiring like my life is... full of studying and working too.. so siann... friend call me to destress.. relax abit but how?? this yr seems like i cant feel anything at all.. stress... happiness... or wat... still i cant feel it.. is it really like wat my friend said... i overstress with my life?? but over view of my life i cant think of something i can really do... and i think i really have the time to do it.. if the whole can get me extra time tat will be great.. hai... hope that sometime i can find my feelings back and also my timing back too.... but this... think have to wonder and wonder....

2007-10-26T08:44:00.000-07:00

examination week

2007-06-26T07:10:00.000-07:00

hihi... this week is my examination week... so sian... still have 2 more days to go... btw got a strange feeling this yr... this yr let me feel very tiring... no matter wat i do.. eventually i will feel tired... and this lead that i feel emotionless.... i have no feeling towards anything... neither sad nor happy.... so wish to find back the feelings i had be4... maybe poly life have change alot towards a person living style ba... including their emotion or feeling... hope that i really have moremore break... so that i can really rest more.... and wouldn feeling so tired... hai.. tml is my A maths exam.. don know can make it or not.. because all is too new for me.. hope can pass.. hehe.... jia you ba....

time is very precious....

2007-06-23T09:59:00.000-07:00

yoyo... humhum... let me see wat time is it now... now is around 1.01 am... and im still blogging... editing about some stuffs and etc... hehe... hai... i left 1 more day.... 1 more day to my.....sch reopen.... hai.... abit sian.... though i like sch open because like that wouldn need to plan wat should i during the holidays..but the problem is after the sch reopen is my examination... sooo... siaaannn siaaa... but no choice... i have to chioonnnggg.... in order to score good results for all my modules.... hehe.. humhum... hopefully i can score ba... haha.... btw yeah.... tml can go k box.... let me enjoy my late day of holiday before facing the cruel side of students world.... the EXAMS!!! haha.... k ba.... i will stop here.... jia you ba.... haha...

midnight creation...

2007-06-22T09:12:00.000-07:00

yoyoyo...

now is midnight...

yeah...

finally create a blog..

though im still

blur with it...

hehe...

but still can

manage to create

a basic one....

haha...